It recently dawned on me that I rarely take the time to reflect and appreciate how far I have come since I started training. I began thinking about the impact some things have in people’s lives and how people stumble upon things by chance. Without expecting it, these things become such an important aspect of who a person is. Joining Crossfit back in 2012 was one of those things for me. It completely changed my views on fitness and introduced me to another world of strong women, inspiring me to be like them.
Two weeks ago as I was preparing to go to a concert, I decided to try on a dress I had not worn in a year. To my surprise, the dress still fit perfectly, despite the twelve pounds I had gained since I last wore it. All of a sudden, it hit me just how much my mindset has changed over the years. I transitioned from being obsessed with my weight to focusing on training and discovering all the amazing things my body is capable of doing. That night, I took a trip down memory lane and it made me feel proud of how far I have come.
I started exercising seven years ago with the sole goal of losing the twenty pounds I had put on since high school. At that point, I felt unhappy and needed something to make me feel better about myself. I was in a dead-end relationship, had a crappy job, and was disappointed about dropping out of college. Deep down I knew I was capable of so much more, but I did not know how to get started. I remember how lost I felt when I set foot in the gym for the first time. It was such an overwhelming experience, especially because I had never played sports as a kid. For much of my early adult years, I lived a sedentary lifestyle so I was venturing into something of which I had zero knowledge.
For the first few years, my workout regimen consisted of tons of cardio and putting myself through every diet in the book. I eventually did lose the weight I wanted to lose. I guess if a person does enough cardio and starves herself, she is bound to lose something; unfortunately, I could not stay committed to that lifestyle. I went through a roller coaster of diets and binge eating for years, and would always end up putting the weight back on. It was not until I started Crossfit that I understood what fitness is all about and developed a new love for it.
I had seen videos online of women doing Crossift. I remember thinking how badass these women were. I wrestled with the idea of joining a Crossfit gym for months because I was not sure I could endure the training and because of the negative input from family and friends. It is unfortunate there is a label on what society thinks is “acceptable” for females to do and not do. We give birth to babies!!! Lifting a little weight is not going to kill us.
I went against the popular vote and joined. At first, I thought I would do it for one month just to say I did it. After a week went by, I knew I never wanted to quit. All of a sudden, I found myself making goals that had nothing to do with my weight and everything to do with my strength and performance. Week after week, I grew stronger and could not get over how many things I was able to do, things I never thought possible. It made me feel powerful, fearless, and most importantly, I started to believe in myself.
What I learned in Crossfit has transferred over to every other aspect of my life. It has given me a tremendous amount of confidence and taught me valuable lessons on discipline, consistency and hard work. Today, fitness is one of the most important parts of my life. I have found the one thing that keeps
me centered and focused. Subsequently, I would not know how to live without it. I look at my life today and everything I have accomplished in the last few years professionally, personally, and physically and cannot believe I am the same person I used to be. That girl does not exist anymore; a secure, resilient, and healthy woman replaced her.